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Are you afraid to die?

Yes, I am. I shit my pants thinking about it.

What do you do about it then?

The shit?

The dying.

Distract myself.

What do you do?

I find things to laugh about.

Like what?

Morons on TV mostly.

Does it help?

No. But it does pass the time.

Wouldn’t you feel closer to it though?

Death, you mean?

Yes.

Yes.

But that’s all right?

It’s not all right but it’s all I’ve got.

What do you mean?

Everybody else’s got a life you know;

After a few months, they’re not as interested

Do you really think that?

Yes.

How does that feel?

Like it’s already over.

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Robot

I’m not depressed

It’s just that I am alone

I don’t even feel sad about it

It’s just something that I know

I also know that I have to fix it

If I wish to be moving on.

I don’t need someone to appreciate me

I just need someone to talk to

It doesn’t have to be human

An infant dog would also do.

It has been weeks

It hasn’t blown over

This loneliness of mine

That’s why I need to take action

Any solution would be fine

As long as I don’t have to

Talk to strangers

Go out after 5

Talk about religion

Or why I don’t go out at night.

I basically need someone

Who’ll just be around

Talk when being talked to

And shut up if not.

Right.

I need to get me a robot

Right here, right now

As long as it looks human

Has eyelids and all that

I’m fine with a 16 gig RAM

And an updated system

To take in information

And process fast enough

To the nonsense this brain shoots

It should keep up.

A cold metallic friend is not sad at all

It’s more than what I have now

No lower could I fall

I’ll take what I can get

Is what I’ve always said

For now I am alone

And as such will lie in bed.

Problem

Will you be my problem?

I am in need of one

I lie in bed at night

Thinking about death and whatnot

While other girls walk around

Begging for love

I don’t mean that I’m better

I just mean that I am different

While they wait for a call or a knock on the door

My thoughts in the ceiling

They fly and they soar

I don’t have real issues

That’s what I reckon

It is arrogant, yes

But the truth, it beckons

I flip through pages of Harry Potter

‘What is Ron’s role?’ I wonder

I watch the Kardiashians and then wonder how they feel

They exploit themselves to pay their bills

All of these thoughts will not be in my mind

If you were my problem before I sleep at night

I’d wonder if you talked to Amy

If you find her cute, if you find her funny

I’d wonder if your friends or family like me

If I was rough enough, polite enough, smart enough

Whatever is their liking

I’d wonder if you’d call in the middle of the night

Asking if you could stay over until there is light

I’d wonder in the darkness if you really loved me

Or did I just entertain you, a flight of your fancy

If I were with you, I would be neurotic

But at least my neurons will be good for something

I’ll question my beauty, my value, my entire existence

But I wouldn’t know that because I’d just think about your presence

I’d just wonder if you loved me, loved me, or loved me

I will not think about my individuality

I will not think about my successes and beautiful fails

The meaning of my life and the death that it entails

Yes, I’ll choose you to be my problem

It’s got a sugar coating and the icing is you

With or without your permission

My problem now will only be you

Fade


There was a lady

Who was looking sternly at me

You were standing not far away

In the darkness, I couldn’t see

The look on your face
The room started shifting

Floors were elevating

Ceilings were falling

And yet you stood, unmoved

Standing far away from me
People were saying things

Things I could not make out

What are the words that they are mumbling

For the life of me

I don’t know what they’re talking about
I stood at the end of the aisle

I could just make out the silhouette of your back 

The smoke was too thick

I had to wait a while

First an unsure step, a run, and then an attack

By the time I got to you

You were facing me all right

But those cold cold eyes

Sent shivers down my spine
I retreated slowly slowly

If I walked away slowly enough

You might change your mind and try to catch up

I walked farther away, slowly slowly

You didn’t catch up

You just faded away

Slowly

Slowly